Happy 7th Birthday Ashley!

HAPPY 7TH BIRTHDAY TO MY SWEET PRINCESS ASHLEY!

WE LOVE YOU & MISS YOU SO MUCH!

I sit here right now in a quiet house, Paul is at work, and my wonderful sis-in-law Jill is out running errands for me with Alice. Since this is the only kind of journal I keep, and even though it is a public journal as well, I still thought I would write down some of my thoughts and feelings.

Today is the hardest day of the year for me. I miss Ashley each and every day, but today the pain and sadness is multiplied more than I can even explain. I have been so emotional about it over the past week or so, every time I think about her birthday I start to cry. I am sure that being pregnant adds to my emotions. Ashley loved birthdays and holidays. I wish she could be here in person to celebrate with us.

Here is a little video from this morning of Alice singing Happy Birthday to Ashley. It is so cute, although she is way distracted. Maybe she will have it perfected by the end of the day and we can do it again! (MUTE MUSIC ON SIDEBAR)

I had such a fun time yesterday evening meeting one of Ashley's friends from preschool, Chloe, and her sisters, and mom. They wanted to meet me there and take some special things to Ashley resting place. The weather was frightful but we had a great time. Thanks girls, I know Ashley loved the notes you sent to heaven in balloons, and the cute pink flowers, and the balloons you wanted me to take to my house. You are such great friends. Thanks for remembering Ashley. I know she loves you so much.

I will post more pictures and an update of today's events later tonight or tomorrow. We plan on meeting our family at the cemetery tonight followed by cake and ice cream at our house after.

I tried to repost Ashley's 6th birthday post because it has a lot of fun pictures of her birthdays in the past, but I can't figure out how, so if you are interested go to the post from 10/15/08 and check it out!